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January intentions

Okay, publicly I’m very anti New Year Resolutions because of course Jan 01 is just another day. But secretly, every year I give myself a list which takes about two ponderous weeks to write before that day and about two weeks to be scrapped after it.

I don’t think I’m alone there.

Have I attempted to create a list again this year? Of course, and because of that there tumultuous 2020, I suspect the symbolic line will be drawn and a few more lists will be made than normally the case. Will my resolutions last longer than 1/24th of the year because I’m declaring my intentions? I’m saying nothing until after the 14th. We shall see.

My list:

  • New 30 Day Yoga with Adriene – followed by more yoga (5 times a week – or at the very least 3)
  • Run 100 miles in Jan – followed by more running ( try not to drop below 70 miles each month)
  • Learn how to use WordPress with more proficiency than writing the title and then typing
  • Write a short story each month
  • Grow vegetables in our new greenhouse
  • Don’t waste my Black Friday Babbel purchase to learn Italian.

It’s hefty but not impossible and given that I don’t work full time, the only reason I’d fail is laziness.

Laziness and procrastination. These qualities of my character have consistently been the two main reasons why I have never failed at anything other than fulfilling my January list. They’ve kept me from really diving deep and working hard to explore the limits of my capabilities. And those ‘shelf help’ books keep telling me that it’s because I’m afraid to fail. In reality it is more often than not, a case of the CBAs (which means ‘can’t be arsed’ for anyone who has never been afflicted).

I know there may be some people who have genuine psychological barriers but that isn’t me although I haven’t been analysed recently. What IS me is a phobia against hard work and when the going gets tough, I’m usually the one slipping out the back door. Theoretically, I could be the most spiritually advanced person in Buddhist or Hindu terms because I’m great at detachment and life’s just all a great big inconsequential thing from a universe point of view and if I binge watch Netflix and Amazon all the time it matters not a jot.

But still I persist in this making of a list.

There must be something then, tapping quietly (sometimes a little too quietly) at my shoulder. Asking me gently what my passion might be. That list above is pure fancy, it’s just about me. It won’t impact on anybody else – apart from the vegetables maybe – but it may just, if I don’t quit, lead me to a little exploration of who I may be.

I have started quite well in the two days that have elapsed. I only have 93 miles to go and I’ve started the Yoga series. I feel as stiff as a board. Yesterday, despite the NYE fizz still sploshing around in my head, I managed 3.5 miles and found the following empty bottle in my street which kind of sums it up.

6 thoughts on “January intentions”

  1. I HEAR YOU ON ALL COUNTS!!!! I am running into scads of “blocks” (not meaning paragraph BLOCK STYLES LOL!) in producing my own music! Took a private one-to-one lesson last week from WordPress Hap. Eng. in getting help posting my novel on my site. Was a great help. Just NOW reading notes the teacher (Jorge?) sent me. Rome wasn’t building in a day. Anyhow good luck in all your goals. I’m an IPA guy…Corona–Ew! LOL!

  2. I often slip up on my resolutions, but I found my running resolutions were easier to keep once I joined a neighborhood running group and also signed up for races far into the future, gradually increasing the race length to meet my fitness demands. I ended up completing my 50 state marathon goal 2 years ago and I am now struggling to set new goals, as I tell myself I have done all I can do. Last year was a bust! Let’s do better this year.

    1. Wow, you’ve done a marathon in every state??!! That is some goal and well done for completing it. I can understand the dip after. I have only done two and they were 5 years ago. After each one I felt a bit listless. I am part of a local group but haven’t run with them for nearly a year, what with the world as it is right now. Luckily I have a great neighbour who comes out with me a lot. This little intense Jan running goal is to try and get my level of fitness back to something I can build on more easily. Better stop now as I can ramble on forever! Thanks for reading!

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